小北的不老歌

动机

在我的博客开篇中曾提及日后应该将念法学院的动机写下来。知道虽然保不准三年以后的想法不会截然不同,但是总应该将自己当初做出这么大决定的动机给真实地记录下来,算是给自己一个交代,即使日后如果为财所困在律所里混,累得跟孙子一样找不着北的时候回过头来读一读,还能感慨一下当年咱也有过点追求,好歹也曾想过和崇高俩字玩一把擦边球。然而一直以来每每要下笔却又思绪万千不知从何下手,几个月里开了几次头又统统删掉。

今天睡过了头,起床后决定乘着周末把这份心愿了结,一定要把念法学院的动机在没有变质之前给记录下来。然而抓耳挠腮半天还是憋不出个所以然来。动机其实很简单明确,简单到用“从政”两字就可以概括的地步。然而如果要进一步解释起来却发现无所适从。想解释这动机不是作为男人向往权力游戏的本性使然,但除了“真的不是啊”以外不知道还能如何辩解而没有越描越黑之嫌,不知道如何进一步述说才不显得虚伪和功利。

郁闷之时偶然读到曾国藩的一句话:

“天下事,在局外呐喊议论,总是无益,必须躬身入局,挺膺负责,乃有成事之冀。”

反复三遍读毕,键盘一推,长叹一口气,罢了罢了。前人已然如此精辟,我再多说也无益。想起申请法学院所用作文两篇,恰好暗合其意,于是将文中恩师姓名隐去,附在这里,聊以明志,也算是给自己真实动机的一个见证。

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Comments (13)

  1. Spring

    颇有感触……

  2. Evita

    小北你真是偶的偶像啊!

    No kidding~ I read your blog on a daily basis and get inspired and encouraged a lot. I also enjoyed your writing about your life and your hobby very much. I am also going to law school this fall. Hopefully you will write as often in law school as you do now~

  3. Evita

    小北你真是偶的偶像啊!

    No kidding~ I read your blog on a daily basis and get inspired and encouraged a lot. I also enjoyed your writing about your life and your hobby very much. I am also going to law school this fall. Hopefully you will write as often in law school as you do now~

  4. littlenorth

    //blush.

    will try to keep up the writing in law school, if i am not swamped by the assigned reading and writing already. i am so glad to see yet another 0L — makes me look forward to writing about the senses and nonsenses in law school. 😉

  5. yilan

    “天下事,在局外呐喊议论,总是无益,必须躬身入局,挺膺负责,乃有成事之冀。”—maybe littlenorth would be the first Chinese prime minister who graduated from law school, ^_^

    p.s. What does OL mean?

  6. littlenorth

    yilan, that would be too much. 😀 sometimes i think a 镇政府计生办 is an ideal line of work for me. i suppose i can meet a lot of babies that way?
    1L, 2L and 3L refer to 1st, 2nd and 3rd-year law student. 0L is just a concoction after these “L”s: 0L = 0th year law student = incoming law school student.

  7. yilan

    Ah, I see, I understand 1L, 2L, 3L, and it seems 0L is the better way to describe you and other admitted students, hehe.

    If you work in 镇政府计生办, I guess you can meet very few babies but lots of pregnant women, xixi. However, a pediatrician, like my mother-in-law, does see lots of babies in his/her entire life. What a lovely career!

  8. yilan

    对了,littlenorth你有空的时候,可不可以写篇关于纪念复习LSAT的帖子啊。

  9. Neo

    No. 中国的法律系统走向专业化已经是不可逆转的趋势,长则5年短则3年,法官、检察官、律师等将会走向专业化的选拔、管理。所以。。。除非小北一门心思想去计生办,否则还是比较难的。 😀

  10. littlenorth

    “可不可以写篇关于纪念复习LSAT的帖子啊”

    从命。:)

  11. Xia Wudong

    Not easy. Now You have a cute baby, littlesouth. Will you go back to China leaving your family in the States? Lots of open issues.

    On the other side, while your lucky classmates earn 125k in New York, can you live up to the life that your month salary is below RMB5,000 in Beijing? (Hope there will be a decent rise by 2008.)

    Anyway, wish you good luck with your studies in UMich, and will go through this three-year torture successfully.

  12. littlenorth

    actually littlesouth is one of the main reasons for me wanting to go back before she reaches a certain age. i want my kid(s) to be immersed in the Chinese language, culture and social interaction.

    I wouldn’t necessarily call my future classmates making the standard $125k in NYC “lucky”. The real lucky ones are those who land federal clerkships. $125k/yr in NYC is in fact not a whole lot better than Y5k/mo in Beijing. Both are on the lower-side of comfortable living by local standards — plenty for day-to-day expenses but by no means able to sustain a “high-society” lifestyle. i have fairly low aspiration to the highend lifestyle anyway and anything beyond a car (be it privately owned or loaned from dan-wei), an apartment, a thinkpad with wireless internet and a decent camera is not essential. 😉 If I have little or no law school debt to worry about I’d pick the 5k in Beijing any day, just for the beijing-hua alone. It’s almost music to my ears. Much more enjoyable than the New York accent, and minus the New York attitude.

    i tend to think these 3 years will be tolerable… i’ve been through worse, or so i think.

  13. Zhu Huafang

    小北,很喜欢读你写的东西,看你给女儿拍的照片:)睿智又有生活激情的人,现在是越来越少见了

    上面链接的两篇文章好像打不开诶,很吊胃口的:)

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